Just Chantelle's Blog

As the day breaks, I find myself prying my heavy lids open as “my face is red with weeping, dark shadows ring my eyes” (Job 16:6). I can tell that the sun is peeking through the clouds. I realize that a new day has arrived and I have received brand new mercies and a chance to hear and see the people I love.  But why am I not happy? Why do I continue to go to sleep cry and wake up crying? When will this stop? Last year, I thought this would be the first year I could get over my holiday blues and be able to enjoy the season as others do but now I have more sorrow. Will there ever be a Thanksgiving & Christmas that I really can celebrate and enjoy? It has been four and a half months since you took her home to be with you. My heart feels like it was yesterday but my mind feels like it’s a nightmare. So much has change and transpired. Feels like a tornado came and ripped my life apart and now I’m searching for remains of myself… If you find my joy, peace or happiness, please return to sender. I am leaving PO (praying often) Box # while i run away and hide from the pain…..

Send to:
PO Box 91.1
Psalm, Bible 24007-0365