Just Chantelle's Blog

My Pastor (Kenneth Fowlkes, Kingdom Builders COGIC) was instructed to have the church go on a 10 day fast. At first, I thought 10 days!!! I just came out of Lent. But obedience is so much better than sacrifice so I did it. Pastor told us that through these 10 days to write down what we want God to do for us. We were to bring the list to church with us but when we pray, pray for EVERYBODY and not whats just on your paper. His words were “Seek his face and not his hand”…. These words just kept ringing in my ears… First I was wondering, what??? Not his hand?? But what if it’s a financial need?

The first day of prayer was awesome. There wasn’t a great number of people in the prayer but God told me that he would use the “remnant” to win souls. All it takes is a few. The bible shows us where on many occasions, there was only a few who won the multitude:
1. Noah and the Ark… only 2 of each animal and Noah’s immediate family;
2. How should one chase a thousand, and two put ten thousand to flight;
3. 2 Fish, 5 loaves of bread….

The second day of the fast was good. More people are out in prayer. God told me in prayer that as we DENY our flesh, he was APPROVING our requests. God is still delivering. There are family members being saved and healed. When you do the unselfish things and forget about your situation, God can use you for the multitude.

Day 3 is where I find that the words “Seek his face, not his hand” hit home in MY life… I am awakened in the wee hours of the morning with simply “RELEASE the _____”… I get up and wonder what??? You want me to do what??? Do you realize “I” got that on my own, “I” did this by myself, “I” tried to help others out… “Seek his face, not his hand”…. It’s not about what “I” THOUGHT… GOD did it and he can do it ALL over again if he desires… Ok God, I’m not liking this answer… So now I’m wrestling with the thoughts. Feeling like Jacob, wrestling with the angel… Why do I have to come out of this with a limp?

Day 4 is a struggle… Between crying, no rest and my mind-set ablaze, ALL I can do is “Seek his face”… I need answers. I need change. God has reveled some things and now its time to release. Log into school and find that I received a “B” in the class that i needed an “A” in…. Ok… I’m good with it, I will just find another Grad school to attend… “Seek his Face”…

Day 5 back on track. I’m focusing on praying for others, not worrying about anything. Attend the funeral (out-of-town) of my cousin who was like an aunt to me. Its good seeing family. the preacher who eulogized her said the “she isn’t gone, she’s just at the comma of her life”… Ok… So now I look around the church, I noticed all of the family and friends gathered and am reminded of what one preacher said years ago, “We are born in one year, it’s what people remember about you and what you do in the middle that matters the most. What is your dash (-) doing?” Ann’s dash had an effect on people so her life with the Lord is now a comma waiting for the rapture…

Day 6… Nothing really is happening… Is there a meaning for 6 in the bible? It’s a beautiful day outside… Life is beautiful.

Day 7 Completion. God’s perfect number… The Lord is blessing and church is good. We take the Lords Supper (what better way to complete a week!!!)… Reminded me of the saying, One week without God can make one weak…

Day 8 … Today…. Stay tuned….