Just Chantelle's Blog

Mãe (pronounced my-e)… its what Zo and I called you and everyone used to say what are y’all saying? We never said mom, mommy, mother because you were different so you needed a name that was different. Funny how we found that the word was Portugese for mother anyways. LOL

Its been 4 days and we haven’t talked. I woke up this morning thinking that we were going to go see the fireworks. It would have been your first time on the mall. I know you probably would have complained that it was hot but would stay because Mooky and I were there. LOL

I understand that God will ease the pain and one thing I will NOT do is try and mask this. No hanging out with friends all times of the night, no alcohol would sooth me, no company of a man will subside this but PRAYER will comfort me. I never knew how much I needed my family until now. Yes Michael and I have always been able to talk and Pat used to be my hanging partner but I never spent as much time as I should have with your girl Angie. When I thought I wanted to be alone and just go home, I found myself right back in the house with Mike & Angie. We have been able to keep each other laughing and it has been medicine.

You may not have realized how much all of grandkids, your siblings, their spouses, nieces, nephews, spiritual daughters, friends and coworkers love you. They do. You were always my link to them and because of your love, I’m able to say the link is NOT broken. We will continue to remember all of your Inspirational morning nuggets, your music videos and our talks about “da mens” LOL.

Let me let you go so you can finish your checkrun. I’ll talk to you later. Smooches