Just Chantelle's Blog

I used to say I don’t know what I’d do without my mom. Too bad I never got the answer. I feel like I am living “aimless” with no clear direction. Am I selfish for wanting her here on earth? Maybe but if I am you can’t make me believe I’m wrong. Yes, I believe she is in a better place. Yes, I believe I will see her again. Yes, I remember all of the good times. But none of this helps. Oh yes, I am praying when I feel hurt but my prayers seem to be jumbled because my tears and thoughts are interfering. I just wish I could turn back time to 6/29 @ 5:02 pm and talk to you again. I’m tired of being the strong, responsible one. I just want to let go of everything for just a little time but I can’t because YOU were my backup. Now what??

Eli, Eli sabachthani….